Confessions of an Undisguised Drama Queen

Thursday, August 04, 2005

F words

No, I'm not referring to the 4-letter swear word.

Yesterday I was talking to a friend of mine and we were discussing about handphones. He commented that guys go for functions more than appeal while most girls don't really care much about what the phone can do. Almost immediately, I replied with a "That's NOT true!", before realising that he said 'most' girls, and not just 'girls' in general.

"You're such a feminist!" he claimed.

J, the ~~FCP~~ Feminist

a feminist: one who believes in the social, political, and economic equality of the sexes

I totally agree with my friend's ~~accusation~~ opinion that I can be quite the feminist. In fact I'm pretty proud of it. I always believe that women are no lesser than men as a species. It's true that both sexes have their weakness and strengths in different aspects but I see it as a way God has created us such that when a man and a woman become a couple, the attributes of one party will complement and compensate for the other's flaws.

The way I see it, the reason why most (see, I am not making a sweeping statement) men make generalisations about women being oversensitive, weak, cuckoo about technical stuff etc etc. is because they need to feed their elephant egos and nurse their trembling insecurities.

But of course not all men are like that.

I do see a rising trend of SNAGS around me.

However, it does get a little worrying that these SNAGS can sometimes get too wishy-washy and indecisive. (And then there are people who say that I have lofty expectations.)

J, the freedom seeker

The main reason why I can't see myself committing into any serious relationship. As yet. I shun emotional 'liability' like plaque. Well, almost to that extent.

But to put it in a nice way, I celebrate singlehood. I love being a singleton. I like being self-sufficient (mentioned once too often...) and able to concentrate on what I'm working towards in my life (sadly, is somehow under some doubt. see previous post).

I think I'm in the point in my life where I want to experience things and do the stuff that I may not have the time or opportunities to accomplish when I get older. Things like really stretching myself to the limits: working really hard in school, picking up new languages, nurturing friendships and kinship, doing everything simultaneously, and just being there for the people I care about.

To me, being in a relationship = messy emotions = restrains = stifling suffocation. I admit, I'm afraid to commit.

I know the only constant in life is change, and I think it's not fair to the other person because I know that somehow, as time passes, I'm sure to change; in terms of ideals and maybe even feelings. How then, can I bear to put someone I care about so much for through the hurt of realising that I am no longer the person I was?

I seek solace in my solitude.

[Time of Confession] 12:50 AM
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3 Comments:

Madcap J said...: Everyone should know that this friend of mine said that he'd treat the WORLD beer when someone comes along one day and sweeps me off my feet. We'll all wait expectantly ya... HAHA; 12:02 PM
Anonymous said...: ya ya.. getting attached doesn't mean getting swept ok. :P i still think there's a higher chance of u sweeping the feet from under the guy instead. i can just picture this: "Mr and Mrs Joy Chua". HA HA :D u got 'wait' and 'expectantly' right.

- THAT friend.; 12:17 PM
Madcap J said...: yeahyeah... don't think i don't know, you're just saying that to save your own butt... trying to jeopardise the hope of the world getting free beer!; 12:28 PM