[C'EST MOI]
living paradox. individualist with anarchistic tendencies.
eludes eminence but appreciates subtle recognition.
capricious yet dependable. clandestine and unfathomable.
cynical realist who succumbs to the occasional idealism.
[J'AIME]
music. films. feasting & drinking. team sports.
good company; family, friends and those who share similar interests.
Let's take a look at what colour therapy says about my mood:
The idea of togetherness, love, warmth, tenderness and mutual understanding fascinates you but you seem to be embarrassed by the thought of allowing this to appear openly. --> well, much as I am quite the cynic, I do still hope to fall in love and live happily ever after, like everyone else.
It would appear that you employ a cautious exploratory tactic in the pursuit of this objective, making sure that you are neither irrevocably committed nor found out. -->hmm, quite explains why I tend to be really passive in this aspect I guess; hiding all the emotions.
You don't really give in. You follow your beliefs and ideals to the bitter end. You are the personification of stubbornness and whatever may transpire, right or wrong, you refuse to compromise or make concessions. -->oh yes, I'm quite a hard nut to crack... especially when it comes to making compromises with what I believe in
The situation at this time is one of considerable distress. You feel trapped and you are looking for some way out. You can find solace in the arms of someone who cares so long as there is no long-term emotional involvement. --> I am somewhat embarrassed to admit this.... but I don't know about the long-term involvement though. I do feel things should not be rushed into anyhow.
Your stress and anxiety are a result of an emotional disappointment. It could well be that the emotional relationship is no longer running smoothly and you have come to the end of your tether. --> maybe I'm just tired of being alone
On the one hand you would like to free yourself from this relationship altogether, yet on the other hand, you don't want to lose anything nor risk the uncertainty of throwing away something - something that's precious, something that could be the 'Real Thing'. --> no relationship to throw away. only my freedom...
Perhaps for the first time in your life you really don't know which way to go and it is these contradictory emotions that are causing you the untold stress. You are pretending to the world that you don't care but even this air of pretence is causing you much heartache. --> err... i don't think there's much choice regarding my options of 'where to go' in the first place
You are moody and depressed at this time but it will pass. --> this better be true
All of your hopes and dreams seem to have gone astray and you are fearful of planning further for the future. Disappointment at the non-fulfilment of your hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety and you try to escape from this by withdrawing into yourself. --> yeah, i've been disappointed one time too many
But that is not the answer. You have the power to succeed, believe in yourself... all is possible to him who believes. --> but isn't it the fool who believes in the impossible too?
[Time of Confession] 1:47 AM 5 Wisecracks for Me
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5 Comments:
Anonymous said...
Yeah. I'm a fool too. A Very big one. Cuz I believe in miracles.
5 Comments:
Yeah.
I'm a fool too.
A Very big one.
Cuz I believe in miracles.
I wish I had as much faith as you to believe in miracles.
Hmmm. Faith. I'm not even sure you can call it so. On the other hand, it could just be false hopes. Some call it stupidity.
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Oh well, but at least a foolish man is blessed in his own ignorance =)
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